Monday, January 18, 2021

Hello 2021~!

 Assalamualaikum and Good Afternoon to my dead blog... 

Muahahaha...

It's been so long since I have updated this blog. I have forgotten the password but luckily managed to recover it. Finished my Degree and now starting to look for jobs in this PKP 2.0. Even though I'm now 26 years old (Not yet 27 since not my birthday yet :P) I don't know what I should do now. I always follow the flow in my studies but now finished I have to start focusing on getting a job. Look for work is really scary for me. As I have quite low self-esteemed? I can say that I don't really have the confidence to talk with people and go to interviews. Even before Degree after finished the Diploma I have a thinking that I want a job where I don't have to interact or more specifically talk with others ( ewwww... gediknya diri ku ini) but ended up doing Degree anyway. Now that way of thinking is back I guess it is because the fear I felt on look for jobs. Used to do presentation on unemployment in class now I'm part of the unemployed. Most of my friends have jobs and I'm quite sad as I still feel like I don't know what to do with myself. 

In another note,  my family has been asking when am I getting married. I don't know what to say. My brother told me that I don't have to think about buying a house (after I get employed and have saving) since my husband will prepared for it. I HATE THAT STATEMENT! I want something that proves that I have worked hard on getting it not something that was given to me by someone else hard work and not because that person is my husband. Truthfully, I don't know whether I will ever get married as I don't know the feeling of loving someone so much because after my Mama passed away. I don't know if I will ever go through with losing the person I love so much. I didn't tell anyone that I felt this way so this is the only place that I can write these things~ <3

I don't even think that anyone of my families know about this blog except my classmates from secondary school. But I think even they have forgotten that this blog ever existed.

Might be the last update might be not. Maybe in a few years it will be update again or deleted. The reasons I recovered this blog was to delete it to banish it from existence (cewahhh) but suddenly felt like updating it.

Thank you if there anyone found and read this blog~ 

Do comment if there any advised? I don't know why I wrote this.

Assalamualaikum and Good Afternoon


P/S: If anyone want to play games like Minecraft or Rust do tell I'm bored of playing single player. 

P/S: Also I got a notice regarding European Union laws require you to give European Union visitors information about cookies used and data collected on your blog. In many cases, these laws also require you to obtain consent.  I don't know how to confirm it... ( I don't think anyone from EU would even read this blog.. LOL)

Thursday, June 16, 2011

School~!!

Assalamualaikum and hello to everyone that read my blog....
It's been so long since I last update my blog...
It's seems so messy..
Maybe i should change everything?
I was thinking about changing my link also..
But don't know what to change...
Currently I'm learning how to use adobe photoshop cs5..
Still not that good...
But I will try my best till it turn out great~!
I just add up a few things....

Just notice that my post title is about school but i have been talking about changing the blog...
As everyone knew school have started~!! Like 4 days ago... Urgh! I'm so slow...
This week is the scariest because me and my classmates got our paper for mid-year exam...
It's really scary... I failed like A LOT! Not good for prefect... Especially when keep i FAIL my BM paper.... Ever since form 4 i have been failing my BM paper... I don't know what's wrong with me... I always speak in Malay... What wrong with me?!! Should I follow like my brother said?? But it's really hard... First write in english then translate it into Malay... If i do that... I think it won't have enough time to answer but maybe I should try it once.... I think I'm gonna try... Might not be as hard as think it would be...

*Yawn* So tired... Tomorrow have school... Next week going to UPM for ceramah SPM for 2 days & 1 night...

Assalamualaikum &